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Nightmares and Depersonalization

Posted by MyLifeInSeason in MyLifeInSeason's Blog, 19 May 2017 · 17 views

Have you ever realized or associated nightmares with our issue? I just came to the realization that this may be true. The other night i woke up about 4 times due to horrific nightmares. While in the nightmare, I seemed to be in a type of depersonalization state. Weird because I was asleep. Never knew that there would have been some type of connection...


Posted by xfrancisco10 in The Soul That Got Away, 07 May 2017 · 49 views
DP, Depersonalization, Depression and 2 more...

The night strikes in once again. As I wake up from a nap, I feel more regenerated than the entire 9 hours of sleep I had today. My mind is quiet, my body feel rested but in the center of my chest something still agonizes me. I breathe in deeply as I become aware of my surroundings though not 100%. As I get up I can't help but to notice the anguish squeezing...


Posted by GEP91 in GEP91's Blog, 25 April 2017 · 106 views

Hello,   I am new here but have been (or at least I think I am) suffering from this HELLISH disorder for around 9 months now and I am breaking point. Everything single morning I wake up and instantly feel terrible/question EVERYTHING AND I MEAN EVERYTHING. For example: who am I? What is going on around me? What are words? What is language? What is the...


Posted by mana_war in mana_war's Blog, 23 April 2017 · 43 views

Listening to this as I write, might as well listen while you read. , very sleepy but felt the need to write suddenly.
A few days ago I admitted some things to myself that I hadn't wanted to touch before. I admitted that my pride was really fear, that what I am...

A brighter side of depersonalization

Posted by Nicolen617 in Finally, my DP has helped me, 23 April 2017 · 96 views
positive side

On Monday, I moved out of my boyfriends house. He was psychologically, emotionally, and mentally extremely abusive. He is a part of what brought on this 3 month long episode of DP. Anyways, it was a toxic, sad, cruel, and scary environment living with him. I was isolated and alone with my emotional illness. Monday at 11:30pm he said something mean to me,...

Is this it?

Posted by samhurdd in samhurdd's Blog, 20 April 2017 · 86 views

I'm stuck ,just stuck in this never ending cycle of dread that i face each day, tbh life is looking good for me at the moment I'm 16 and currently facing the struggle of exams but things are looking good in the reality. But I'm not in reality, I feel detached and unable to put a simple sentence together and put a point across to someone without overthinking...

afraid, can anyone relate?

Posted by Nicolen617 in Nicolen617's Blog, 16 April 2017 · 72 views

hi everyone. I just need some words of encouragement. This site has been super helpful to me. But at some points in the day; when I am just going through the motions, running errands, and being productive, I get scared. I stop feeling like myself. I was on the phone with someone who is close to me today, and after talking and talking and talking to her, I...

I recovered from derealization!!

Posted by I recovered! in I recovered's Blog, 01 April 2017 · 151 views

I cannot stress this enough: TRY NEUROFEEDBACK.
I developed derealization because of an anxiety disorder that I thought was gone but resurfaced. I had DR for about 5 1/2 months. Neurofeedback was a GODSEND! My family often sees an applied kinesiologist and he told us about this neurofeedback system called Neuroptimal and I couldn't thank him enough for...

Venlaxafine day 7

Posted by James_80 in James_80's Blog, 20 March 2017 · 117 views
venlaxafine, effexor

I'm now on 37.5mg xl (extended release) a day. This is much better than the 75mg every other day (my psychiatrist doesn't really seem to have a clue sometimes). The side effects are fairly minimal at this point. Every other antidepressant I've been on has totally spaced me out. This one seems to be working more on the depression than the anxiety, although...

Lemme introduce myself

Posted by Trash in Trash's Blog, 15 March 2017 · 103 views

I'm currently in 7th grade and I'm 12(female). I don't like my body image and I'm also sexually attracted to women. I'm very shy and socially awkward. I have a few friends bcuz I lost most of them. I have been getting symptoms of dp but have never told anyone or seen a doctor. When I first started to get symptoms it was in 2015 October. I was in studyhall...

A little better.

Posted by dope in Recovery Blog, 10 February 2017 · 148 views

Ever since the last post (on this blog) I've been feeling a little better...Not too much, however. But I wake up and the feeling is lowered by about 5%, the same whenever I fall asleep (at night DP is way worse for me). During the day, I think the same, too.
I feel like that's good news, but I'm not expecting too much. With DP, as we all know, it's 1 step...

week 4 and 5

Posted by London in London's Blog, 22 January 2017 · 148 views

There is absolutely some change I am experiencing. I am feeling a lot lighter after using the HH exercises - my DP has not gone away but I feel my mental capacity to do things and my motivation has definitely increased. The only other thing I can put this down to is the magnesium citrate I am taking but I dont think that would have such a profound effect....


Posted by BooBear in Positivity and DP, 28 December 2016 · 267 views
positivity, dp, dr, anxiety, help and 3 more...

Hey everyone! Let me introduce myself. I've been diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses in the past, and about three to four months ago, I started developing symptoms of DP. Over the months, it got worse but I am determined to get my life back onto track, as we all know; DP can truly ruin someone's life. Now, I know that people in this community...


Posted by Leannejoanx in Leannejoanx's Blog, 01 December 2016 · 183 views

I am struggling to fall asleep. This feeling of my mind not being connected to my body has taken over my life. I feel it all the time, it won't go away, I want to feel real. I feel so useless, mad, crazy, unpredictable. I can't remember the last time I felt connected. Maybe I was about 9. 13 years ago to be exact. It is the most awful thing not being able...

My symptoms

Posted by puddles19 in Me vs. DP, 22 November 2016 · 214 views

Here are my symptoms, wondering whether anyone out there experiencing the same things as me;

99% of the time emotionless
memory loss during my DP moments, usually unable to put together a sentence because I forget the details i.e. peoples names, places etc.
mental fogginess
lack of motivation
social anxiety - sometimes I'd do ANYTHING...

Sad events.

Posted by Alexm in DP and Me, 21 November 2016 · 161 views

Today was perhaps the most 'real' I have felt in a long time. My cat, a near 15 year old buddy sadly had to be put to sleep this morning.   Why was today significant? I barely flinched when my grandfather passed and he had spent his last year living with us, every day a waking nightmare dealing with his combination of Parkinsons and dementia. I simply...

Trauma n drug abuse my dp story

Posted by Lostsoul26 in Lostsoul26's Blog, 09 November 2016 · 240 views

Hello everyone.I am a newbie to the forum,but not to depersonalization.ive had it full blown for 8yrs now,though I always feel like it lingered in my childhood n early teen years.I am 25 yrs old and a mother of 2.the trauma I experienced started at 9yrs old when my mother passed away in a car accident,I remember feeling my first episode of...

Unbearable DP/DR

Posted by NomadicGalaxy in NomadicGalaxy's Blog, 06 October 2016 · 393 views

I’d first like to apologize for this being so long, but at this point I am desperate and want to provide as much information about what’s happening as I can. I will give a basic overview of what’s been happening, then some further details after. The events I describe started around June 15th, 2016 up until now. Please, if you have...

My depersonalisation/derealisation story

Posted by Yourimotte in Scuiscuik, 05 October 2016 · 328 views

Hi everyone,

I want to share my story of dpd/dr with you guys...I hope my story will be of any help to you all who also suffer from this disorder. I am now 17 years old and I am
almost recovered from my dpd/dr. When I first met this problem I was 12 years old. I went to a sportscamp and the first night I was not able to fall asleep. I then got out off bed...

Losing hope.

Posted by aslikeskinn in My feelings and thoughts., 04 October 2016 · 340 views

I'm so depressed. I feel like there's a bubble in my brain and it's preventing me from being able to be human.
I'm unhappy in my relationship and my cat is lost, and it's driving me crazy. Its like when I wake up in the mornings, I'm never fully awake. I feel like an empty vessel floating around the house doing pointless shit. I feel like slapping myself...

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